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For those of you who are new to my blog, this is sort of a project wherein there is a sort of human book club, where you can just share your problems/traits/anecdotes or just rant. Basically, like books tell us stories, I expect humans to tell stories. Of course, it’s completely anonymous- I can’t even see your emails, so don’t worry about that either! Click here if you wish to submit something. Please do, it might be good to get things off your chest, and I or anyone else won’t even know who you are!
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Disclaimer: I am not a qualified professional, I am just someone who likes helping people, and that’s what I am trying to do here! I also don’t mean to offend anyone, so forgive me if I say something wrong.
Today’s story isn’t exactly a story- it’s a rant, about insecurities.
I’m just so insecure about myself and everything about my body and everything about myself and my self esteem is really low.
I mean sometimes I feel like why am I even living in this world when I’m just useless.
I have a hard time trusting people and I always doubt everything. I even have a hard time believing that someone loves me ( not necessarily in a romantic way but generally also).
I always feel like people are just gonna get tired of me eventually and leave me which is why I never open up either. And if someone does like me I fear that they’ll stop liking me after some time. I’m so done with everything and all these insecurities and overthinking and all I don’t know what to do anymore.
To be honest, I have had all these thoughts at some point in the past two years.
During the pandemic, I put on a lot of weight- about 10 kilograms. I am slowly working to bring my weight back to normal, but of course it’s difficult. Besides, I am not very pretty either, objectively speaking. I have hair on my face, and on my body, and since I don’t really like hair removal methods, I end up having a beard and mustache most of the time. I also have acne and acne scars. So, I have had body image issues. But in the end I figured, that if I have a good brain and a good heart, none of this really matters. Because having a good brain will help me earn money, and everyone knows that money does help with beautification. So, I would recommend you to focus on having a good brain and a good heart rather than having a good body and a pretty face but nothing on the inside.
AND NO ONE IS USELESS, OKAY? Everyone’s born for a reason, and you are too.
As for trust issues, hon, I have a Ph.D in trust issues, okay? I literally don’t trust anyone, sometimes even my family and people I have been friends with for my entire life! It is okay to have trust issues. But you still need to open up to some people. It’s difficult, I know. I don’t even open up to people most of the time, but try and find that one person who has your back no matter what.
And you must have some friends and your family must be with you as well, right? If you ever feel like they don’t love you, just talk to them. Ask them on their faces why they love you. Honestly, I have. There were points in my life, when I was very low, and I honestly loathed myself. Thankfully, I had a system of good people around me, who reminded me why I am a good person, and why they love me.
As for people getting tired of you- If someone does get tired of you and leaves you, it’s their loss, not yours! You are an amazing person, and while it may hurt when they leave you, it’s for the best. You don’t need fake people like them in your life anyway. If someone does get tired of you and leaves, they were never really there for you anyway.
Also, here are a few things I do when I have negative thoughts:
- Work my butt off- This helps me distract me from, well, me
- Work on a hobby- I tend to read or blog whenever I am low
- Write- Okay, this helps so much. Ever since I have started writing poetry, I feel better every time some thing bad happens. Poetry may not be everyone’s cup of tea, so you could try journalling, or something maybe?
- Sleeping- This is like the ultimate mantra. Everytime I wake up from a nap, I feel infinitely better.
Well, I hope this helps you! Also, guys share what you do to deal with negative thoughts in the comments, please!